I Heart Morphine

So I like Morphine. A lot.
I think that could potentially be a problem.

I have been getting headaches a lot lately. It's been really frustrating.
My Dr. has tried 4-5 different migraine medicines and none of them have been working. Again...FRUSTRATING!
The last couple of weeks have been consistant and getting worse. Practically every day I have been getting a headache and the pressure is so intense.

Last night has been the worst night. My small group started and I really didn't want to cancel since it was the first night so we had it anyway. Melody took over leading, which I am so thankful for.

I came home early from work and slept most of the day and when it was time for group my head was starting to get worse. In the middle of group I started to get really hot and clamy and shaky. My leg started cramping up really bad and I just felt SO weird. I got up several times to go to the bathroom thinking that I was going to be sick. They said I looked really white.
I started crying and was starting to get a little scared.
As soon as the girls left I broke down. It was so painful and Melody, Hilary and I decided that I should probably go to the ER. We called an on-call nurse who also agreed with that decision.

So I went to the ER. I was reminded of the many times that Meghan and I had gone to the ER when we were roommates. Dr. Krupp. awwww. I still have a special place for him in my heart. I was halfway expecting him to walk into the room and tell me that I was pregnant or that he liked my "My roommate's mom rocks" tattoo. (that comment was specifically for those who know those stories!)
I was also expecting to see Dr. Derrick Shepherd walk in from Grey's Anatomy. That would have been lovely. I'm sure he could have figured out what was going on with my head.

They had to do a CT scan of my brain to make sure there weren't any tumors or anything major going on. The results came back great. Nothing major. Thank you Jesus. But WHY is my head hurting SO BAD! UGH! Not that I wanted there to be anything serious going on...but I just want it figured out and for the headaches to stop.
They gave me a shot of phenergan to help with the nauseous feeling. In the booty...awkward.
They gave me a shot of something that started with a t for the pain. In the booty...awkward.
The pain was still there...so they gave me a shot of the good stuff...MORPHINE...in the booty...again...awkward.
I like morphine. A lot.
It took the pain away and also made me feel very relaxed!
They sent me home with a RX for vicadin and phenergan.
Nice. Very nice.
Don't worry, I'm not addicted to drugs. I was a part of D.A.R.E.

Melody and Hilary were so nice to have waited for me in the waiting room.
I was told to go home and then follow up with my neurologist, which I already had an appointment set up on October 13 to do some more tests and meet with the Dr. Something was said about a possible MRI. Not sure what the difference between a CT and MRI is.

Today has been a better day, although, I still feel like I'm feeling the affects of the booty shots I got last night! (whoah, that sounded shady) I feel like they are starting to wear off though, and I'm feeling the headache come back.
I'm praying that it won't be like last night.

Be praying if you think of it, I don't want to be gripped by the fear of something majorly wrong. I just want to feel better so that I can fully do the things I want to do, without being in pain. It hurts to even laugh sometimes. You KNOW how much I love to laugh. :)